1、如果可能，我愿意放弃我所有的一切，来换取我家庭的完整。

I'd give it back, all of it, if I could have my family back.

2、如果我不顾一切发挥每一点潜能去做会怎样？ 我必须做到，我别无选择。

I will use my every potential to do that. I just always knew that I need to get out. I have to do it. I have no choice.

3、我觉得有些人只对生活的艰苦灰心丧气，因此把时间都浪费在灰心丧气里，我们称之为愤怒，对事物的整体视而不见，对于所有能够成功的微小元素视而不见。

I think people just get frustrated without harsh, life can be. So they're spending their time dwelling on that frustration we calling it anger. keep their eyes shut to the wholeness of the situation.

4、世界在转动，你只是一粒尘埃，没有你地球照样在转。现实是不会按照你的意志去改变的，因为别人的意志会比你的更强。

The world is changing while you're just a stardust. The earth turns arround with or without you. Reality doesn't change according to your will.

5、你会怀疑地球是否在转动，即使你不在也照样如此，情况不能像你希望的一样，有些人的需求，有些人的信念会比你的更强烈。

The world moves you just suspect. it could no happen without you. Situations are not conduced to what you want for yourself. Someone else's needs, someone else's plate is going to be stronger than yours is.

6、生活的残酷会让人不知所措，于是有人终日沉浸在彷徨迷茫之中，不愿睁大双眼去看清形势，不愿去想是哪些细小的因素累积在一起造成了这种局面。

Keep their eyes shut to the wholeness of the situation. All those tinny things that have come together to make it, what it is.

7、请不要闭眼，机会就在下一秒出现。残酷的现实面前你应勇往直前。

Don't close your eyes, rise again after you fall, you need to get out.

8、因为我的父母迫使我向深处里观察，我有幸看到所有的微小事务是如何最终聚集在一起最终形成产物的，所以我从来不问为什么这样，为什么那样，我知道为什么，这样并不能让我高兴，很多时候倒让我觉得很难过，但是我总是勇于接受，我总是勇于接受事实，我知道我总想离开我的环境。

Because I was turned so inward by mom and dad, I got chance to see how all the little tiny things come together to make the final product .So I was never inclined to wonder why this or why that. I knew why. not that I was happy about it, in fact I was really sad about it, some of the time. but I was very excepting, I was very excepting. I just always knew that I need to get out.

9、我为什么要觉得可怜，这就是我的生活。我甚至要感谢它，它让我在任何情况下都必须往前走。我没有退路，我只能不停地努力向前走。

Did you ever feel sorry for yourself?--That had always been my life and I really——I feel that I got lucky, because any sensive security was pulled out so I was forced to look forward. I had to? there was no going back and I reached a point where I just thought, “oh I'm gonna work as hard as I possibly can and see what happens” and now I'm going to college. and the NYT is going to pay.

10、有时候我觉得世界外有一层外壳，我们所有人都生在这层外壳之下，你能从外壳里看到外面，但是你却出不去。

Sometimes I feel like there is skin upon the world. And those of us who are born under it, can see threw it. We just can't get threw it.

11、就在那一刻，我明白了，我得作出选择。我可以为自己寻找各种借口对生活低头，也可以迫使自己更好地生活。

I knew at that moment I had to make a choice. I could submit to everything that was happening and live a life of excuses? or I could push myself. I could push myself and make my life good.

12、我真的很聪明，我会成功的，我只是需要机会而已，是的，是这样的，我需要机会脱离我出生的环境，我认识的人全都充满了怨气，他们活着只是为了生存，但是我相信有比那更好的地方，那里更发达，我要活在那种地方，就是这样。

I'm smart. I know I can succeed. I just need a chance. A chance to climb out of this place I've born in. Everyone I know are angry and tired. They're trying to survive. But I know that there is a world out there that is better, that's better developed. And I want to live in it.

13、我觉得我自己很幸运，因为对我来说从来就没有任何安全感，于是我只能被迫向前走，我必须这样做。世上没有回头路，当我意识到这点我就想，那么好吧，我要尽我的所能努力奋斗，看看究竟会怎样。

I feel that I got lucky because any sense of security was polled out from me, so I was forced to look forward, I had to , and was no going back. And I reach the point, where I just thought, “All right, I'd got to work as hard as I possiblly can , and see what happens”.

14、放下负担，让它过去，这样才能继续前进。

Now I can lay it out and burn it done, put it in the rest, then I can go on

15、什么是家？一个屋顶？ 床？必须接纳你的地方？如果那样的话，15岁我开始无家可归。

I was 15 when I went out in the world. What's a home anyway? A roof? A bed? A place where when you go there, they have to take you? If so, then I was 15 when I became homeless.

16、终于我明白了，我妈妈在哪里，我的家就在哪里。

17、世界是虚无的，我们活在彼此的心中。她活在我心中，可我无处立足，在这世上我孤独无助。

18、一个十六岁的人只有八年级的水平，你会顺着一个下降的螺旋到一个更糟的地方。你断了每一条路，拒绝了每次机会，你令所有曾经信任你的人都失望了。

19、我很聪明，我可以改变我现在的生活，改变我的一生。我需要的只是这个机会。

20、我必须做到，我别无选择。

21、每天起床，我看见的世界上的每个人，都好像都披着一层膜，无法穿透。这种感觉很奇怪，有点悲哀，可是没有办法改变。这些人的动作举止，为什么这么不一样？是不是因为，他们来的世界就是这么不一样？若是这样，那我要更努力、更努力，把我自己推到那个世界去。

22、我知道外面有一个更好更丰富的生活，而我想在那样的世界里生活。

23、为什么不能是我这种人，他们有什么特别之处，是因为他们的出生？我尽力拼搏，不让自己沦落到社会底层，如果、如果我更加努力呢？我现在离那层膜很近，触手可及。

24、你们努力了吗？ 你们真的努力了吗？我看过很多人在努力，可在我看来，他们只是在尽力，不要尽力而为。要拼命！而且，要找到方向。

25、当然成功不会青睐于任何想不劳而获的人，只有不断努力的人才能获得它。

26、没有人可以和生活讨价还价，所以只要活着，就一定要努力。

27、这个世界很公平，或者世界上根本没有公平。要和别人平起并坐，需要自己的努力。

28、我一直都爱着我的妈妈，无论何时何地，我一直都爱着她，尽管有的时候连她自己都忘记了，但是我一直都爱着她，自始至终，对，自始至终。

29、我爱我的妈妈，自始至终，自始至终，尽管她吸毒尽管她没有照顾女儿，而一直是我在照顾她，好像她变成了我的孩子。

30、就算你是世界上最差劲的妈妈，就算在世人的眼里你是人见人怕的瘾君子，妈妈，我依然那么地爱你。

31、有妈妈的地方就是家。

32、历史是什么？ 历史是别人对你的看法。

33、人会死，花会谢，看似有价值的东西实际上毫无意义。最终留下的是一个影像，模糊的影像，供我们回忆。

34、人们死去，放到坑里，所有的东西都是那么真实，那么没有意义，留下的就是一些行为的碎片，碎片和空气，那就是我们记得的东西。我记得和我妈妈一块儿从斜坡上滑下来，她的肩膀温暖的怀抱着我，当时我还很小，她还很好。那是很久以前，可能只是那么一次，可能她背叛了我无数次，但没有关系，次数不表示问题，我们记得我们的选择。

35、利兹，象我们这样的人，是不可能成功的，更不可能进哈佛。我会的。

36、我一直都爱着我的妈妈，无论何时何地，我一直都爱着她，尽管有的时候连她自己都忘记了，但是我一直都爱着她，自始至终，对自始至终。她活在我心中，可我无处立足，我孤独无助。 37、为什么不能是我这种人，他们有什么特别之处，是因为他们的出生？我尽力拼搏，不让自己沦落到社会底层，如果、如果我更加努力呢？我现在离那层膜很近，触手可及。

38、我爱我的妈妈，自始至终，自始至终，尽管她吸毒尽管她没有照顾女儿，而一直是我在照顾她，好像她变成了我的孩子。

39、世界不是真实的，我们活在彼此的心中。

40、就在那一刻，我明白了，我得作出选择。我可以为自己寻找各种借口对生活低头，也可以迫使自己创造更好的生活！

41、就算你是世界上最差劲的妈妈，就算在世人的眼里你是人见人怕的瘾君子，妈妈，我依然那么地爱你。如果可能，我愿意放弃我所有的一切，来换取我家庭的完整。世界是虚无的，我们活在彼此的心中。她住在我心里，可是我却没有容身之地！

42、我真的很聪明，我会成功的，我只是需要机会而已，是的，是这样的，我需要机会脱离我出生的环境，我认识的人全都充满了怨气，他们活着只是为了生存，但是我相信有比那更好的地方，那里更发达，我要活在那种地方，就是这样。

43、修10门课，用2年读完，这不太可能，太辛苦了。没关系，我可以。

44、没有人可以和生活讨价还价 所以只要活着 就一定要努力

45、我很聪明，我可以改变我现在的生活，改变我的一生。我需要的只是这个机会。

46、我为什么要觉得可怜，这就是我的生活。我甚至要感谢它，它让我在任何情况下都必须往前走。我没有退路，我只能不停地努力向前走。我为什么不能做到？

47、世界在转动，而你只是一粒尘埃，就算你消失了，世界仍然在转动。

48、我为什么要觉得可怜，这就是我的生活。我甚至要感谢它，它让我在任何情况下都必须往前走。我没有退路，我只能不停地努力向前走。我为什么不能做到？

49、不要以为世界会随你的意志而改变，因为别人的意志比你强大得多。

50、人会死，花会谢，看似有价值的东西实际上毫无意义。最终留下的是一个影像，模糊的影像，供我们回忆。

51、这些人的动作举止，为什么这么不一样？是不是因为，他们来的世界就是这么不一样？若是这样，那我要更努力、更努力，把我自己推到那个世界去。

52、世界不随你的意志而改变，因为别人的意志永远比你强。

53、我觉得有些人只对生活的艰苦灰心丧气，因此把时间都浪费在灰心丧气里，还把这

称之为愤怒，拒绝用全面的眼光去看到这种困境。

54、放下负担，让它过去，这样才能继续前进。

55、我知道外面有一个更好更丰富的生活，而我想在那样的世界里生活。

56、就算你是世界上最差劲的妈妈，就算在世人的眼里你是人见人怕的瘾君子，妈妈，我依然那么地爱你。

57、我知道外面有一个更好更丰富的生活，而我想在那样的世界里生活。

58、要是我更加努力呢？那需要努力，但并非不可能。

59、我必须做到，我别无选择。

 

第二篇：《风雨哈佛路》台词

风雨哈佛路 by 赤色土星

风雨哈佛路

主要人物关系：

Liz, Lisa are sisters, they have a mother who is a drug-addictive and their father has AIDS.

[I love my mother so much, she was a drug-addicted, she was nearly blind, she got a kind of fretic, but I never forget that she loved me, even if she did, all the time, all the time, all the time.

Liz's mother: give me the mother, it's mine.] (Liz's father is sitting in the coach and watch the TV program)

Lisa: God, it's my stake. You kids are eating on.

Liz's mother: Where is it? Lisa: give it to me.

Lisa's mother: give a hundred to you. I just came, and I give a hundred to you, to one of you.

Lisa: No, it's for us to live on. Evay month, it's the same dame thing. So you put in your arm, so we can stop. Lisa's mother: it's mine.

Lisa: I didn't take it.

Lisa's mother: Give it to me.(to Liz). It's mine. It's mine.

Lisa: we are hungry.

Liz: I can't. We need food, mother.

Lisa' mother: That's you have ever do for me, un? I give you life, do you want me to get you on the street so mine so forth? Did you want me to do that? I know I do that sometimes, right?

Lisa's father: Geny, what, what are you saying? You needn't do that.

Lisa's mother: I need it. I need it. I need it. [I want that smile, Oh, God, I want that smile so much,I was perfectic ]

Liz: Don't take the aqueduct. Mommy. Daddy? She is taking the aqueduct.

Liz: what the hell does the differences it make?

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Lisa: Who care?

Liz: you will have to get mommy. She can't see in the mud.

Dad: only it's drug addiction. See, she is fixing the life for a change again. Lisa: she is even break anything.

Dad: No, no, she is OK, she sees water runs down the hill.

Lisa: What's the water?

Dad: don't you know what the aqueduct is? The aqueduct carry water over the city, like the hundred years, they did that. Then then cosy it down now, the ghost water, he carries your mother along.

[my father, you could sit down on a coach and talking to my father, he just can talk for long.] Dad: Hey, Geny! He means so much,

[he get all the answers right on Jeopardize. He was a genius. All the answers, all the time. That's the thing, your parents are always your Gods, and look them as examples everywhere in the world. They paid so little attention to my needs, but it makes me feel that their need are so powerful that it didn't make me feel sad of angry. They didn't look into me. Because this is OK for me so, because it must the human conditions to be so.and then the world came in.]

Lisa's mother: you took your husband everywhere, ELizbeth.

Liz: no mummy.

Lisa' mother: I will kill you, I'm not your mother. Did you fever, should you have true. Lisa: Lisa, oh, clean up this, they see this, they will take us, too.

(Cops come into the house, and they will take Lisa's mother away.)

Lisa's mother: No, No. Don't take me.

Cops: why not take your medication. Cops: she just takes enough other things. Cops: this is a mess.

Lisa's father: Geny, put that knife down. Cops: OK.

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Cops: where is the phone?

Liz: we don't have one.

Cops: this is unfit. You girls have a choice, clean this place up, help your mother. Liz: how about my father. Dad: Ignore her, she is a feminist.

Cop: I did see any chance that it will be right. You have to go to school, you can't keep living in like the animals. Hey where are you going. Here come back, you have a home, and your work is there, take everything away, you can't have anything. You have to clean the bathroom, your work is here. Aunt: back up!

Lisa: mommy,

[I can see it, anyone can see it. She was in so much pain, the struggle was so much on the surface, so if there is anyone to look, it was like she was running away from being a good mother to be somebody else, she just doesn't have any more to give. ]

(in the school.)

Child: oh, something steaky. Child #2: what is that.

[I was always the smelly kids in class. Lisa doesn't stand under the bath to shower, but she has marry a doctor and she had so many expectations. I didn't have any expectations, so therefor I guess I stunk. And each from twice, I burns between my legs, my teachers always telling me not to peach it, but my underwear, I didn't what to do about my underwear. I just worried and fall apart.] Teachers #1: all right, keep up and sit down, thank you!

[my teethached, I was hungry,]

Teachers # 1: that's all Thank you.

[what the teacher says seems never reach me. Her word seems just fall on the floor. ] Teacher #1: what sense does it took?

Liz: No, I will take it.

Teachers #1: what your attendence this month, three times?

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Liz: No, I will take it, does it do any hurt? Teachers #1: Oh, Liz, stay here. You do smell you know, isn't your mother tell you about it? Liz: No, it's my fault. I just forget.

Teacher #1: will you have a shower tonight? And wash your back here? Ah, I have save up something for you. And here, how did you do that(Liz just get a full mark on the test.) You never in school. Liz: I read a lot.

Teacher #1: Yeah, what you read?

Liz: The encyclopedia. The ...there, Eva, she found them downstair, the whole set, except from L to S, if you asked me about L to S, I would get them wrong. And it's just like it. Teacher #1: Do you have to come to school. Liz: Yeah.

Teacher #1: No, I mean it, your isn't much here, how is that, why don't you come? Liz:Ｉwill.

[how could I tell here that school make me sad. I didn't know how to talk about it. I didn't know how to talk to anyone. My house wasn't you can come out of it, the normal.]

Teacher #1: you have to come, everyday! If you don't, I will have to call the children affairs, it's not a threat, it's a promise. (then Liz gets home and she showed her papers to Eva.)

Liz: Eva, what have I got? Eva: A hundred.

Liz: it owns to your encyclopedia.

Eva: Your have to make good mark, you don't want to be a idiot, and you keep up now, did you hear me. Now your mother is back. Liz: my mother is back.

Eva: Yeah, we had a quiet, a couple of month, didn't we.

[the only good thing my mother was taking away from the house was that when she is backing again, she is my mother again. She cooked and cleaned, when she even try to be a course of photograph. I mean that was quiet of couple of month. Then it goes.]

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(Lisa gets into the house, and she finds out that her mother was sitting in the coach, smoking!)

Liz: mommy, are you OK?

Liz's mother: I'm OK. OK, you look good. Liz: welcome home, mommy.

Liz's mother: but it suck a little. I'm too glad. Liz: there are bars on the legs.

Liz's mother: I'm sorry, you have seen that. Liz: now I'm glad you are home.Lookl, I got a hundred.No, No, a hundred is good, a hundred is perfect, didn't you ever get a hundred.

Liz's mother: I didn't go to school. I ran away too young, don't you ever want to run away? I'm home.

Liz: I won't.

Liz's mother: Liz, look, I will always be here for you.

Liz:I know, mommy.

Mother: I Will always be here, always. Liz: I know, mommy.

Mother: I'm sick, I'm sick, I'm sick, as I have AIDS.

Liz: No, No.

Mother: they say, don't be afraid, they say I might, I could live for ever, OK? Don't be afraid of. I can go home. Liz: this is home.

Mother: No, home of my pops. I will kill myself.

Liz: No, No. You have to stay here. Mother: I have to stop the drugs. And I can't do it anywhere.

Liz: I will help you along.

Mother: Liz, you just have to pack up your things, and let's go.

Liz: cause you said pops beats you. You said he raped you sister.

Mother: this is where I have to be now. Liz: No, stay here.Stay mommy.

Mother: I can't.

[everything was falling apart, I thought if I stayed it, I could have stop it. My father

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wasn't at stay, so everything somehow, stayed the same. ]

Cops: Just open the door, it's no use, I know you are in there. (Liz opens the door, and there comes in the cops.) where is you mother and sister?

Liz:They gone.

Cops: where is your father?

Liz: he is out to get some food, and he will be right back.

Cops: your teacher call. You still aren't going to school. You never in school. We have to do something about this. Mr. ...I warns you, I want you ever take as long as it take. This is gonna for years, now clean up this place, and go to school. Clean up and go to school. And you haven't got either one of you you, ELizbeth, have you? Liz: no...

Cops: so what we have got to do?

Liz: I don't know.

Cops: I do tell you, you're going to the system. I'm taking her.

Liz: but things are better now, my daddy buys me big potatoes everyday.

Cops:(to Liz's father) you aren't going to pay the rent, you are not going to school.

Daddy: I told her to go to school, she got a mind of her own, she is a feminist.

Cops: this is not a joking matter. Pack her suit case. N-O-W!

Liz: No. No! I will go to school, please.

Cops: this is not work, you need to have adults responsible.

Liz: My grandpa is responsible, My grandpa will take me, my sister is there. Cops: your sister didn't go to school. Liz: I will go to school please.

Cops: don't make a fist. I will talk to him, if he will take you, you will be out in 24 hours. Daddy: Sorry.

Cops: and if he won't?

Cops: you will have time to figure out how do

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want to live out your life.

[Figure out my life, did they will really do that, can you have the feeling of falling down a dark hole. Boston, locked in. It's like visiting my mother, but now I'm in the crazy house right now. I didn't get out in 24 hours, and I didn't get out in 24 days, no one want me, they just left me their. ]

Cops #2: why don't you go to school? That's the big problem here. Why don't you go? From what I can see, you've got a disappointed problem. []

Liz's Grandpa: Liz!

Liz: Hi,pop! It's your mother. Geny, come out, he is there.

Lisa: Liz, I will go to school but I want to see you first.

Liz: Thanks Lisa,

Lisa: don't scroll this out, and don't expect too much, she is dying.

Mother: Liz! Liz: Mom.

[When I think of my life, this is the time I want to think of, when I went back, my mother's mind was clear, there is no cocaine, so she strarting working and we go to the caffe, we sit and talk and eat hamburgers, we were together, even with her bad eyes, I think she could see me, while I can see her mind. And for a while, I had my mother again. ]

Liz: yeah, I remembered, in the ...park. You and I slope down the park.

Mother; you remember that. How about the ...monster.

Liz: we screamed about that one.

Mother: yeah. I was a good Mom, wasn't I? Wasn't I.

Liz: Yeah, mom, you are fine.

Mother: I have that group together, you know, Liz: we have done without drugs, too. But would that be great? Maybe we could go to univeristy anniversary.

Mother: your dad is in the shelter right now,

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I'm afraid he lost himself now, can he afford the rents?

Liz: then what about my stuff? Mother:All our now.

Liz: all out include my encyclopedia? Mother:I'm sorry, they borrowed the whole place, there was nothing he could do, crap and hap, you know. Look, I've got around the corner to see some friends, just for a few minute,OK? You finish your beger, and I'll be right back. Just be a minute.

(Liz went back to the palce where he used to live, but when he got back, he found that everything there is gone.)

[So , that is that, I found no way get back, I haven't kept anything together, I don't made things worse. I don't go to school if I don't need.,If I don't need. so that part of my life was over. I guess the new part had began.] Teacher #2: Elizebath, and you are her mother? I will late take you to the class now?

Liz: are you going to get home, OK.

Mother: hey....I'm if I can take care of me. Liz: May be I should just come with you. Mother: you've got stay at school, or they will take your away. Go, Go.

[I wasn't he smelly kid anymore, I have learn to shower everyday at the group home. And my close even they came from the ...shop, all fit. But I still don't not how to be in school, I still don't know how to be normal. ]

Teacher #2: people, could you please sit up,and Cheris,could you try diagram NO 12. Cheritst: NO.

Teacher #2: Bobby?

Teacher #2: if it amuzing, Elezibeth? Liz: Please don't so call me that.

Teacher #2: that your name according to the form.

Liz: Lisa, or Liz.

Teacher #2: Lisa or Liz is a nickname. Liz: are nicknames.

Teacher #2: No, I;m afraid not.

Cherist: Just call a girl she should be called.

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Teacher #2: Elizebeth is a fine name. It's a name of a Queen, it was a name since Shakespear! What's your problem.

Liz: My mother calls me Elizebeth when she was going to insane.

Teacher #2: Liz, then. Boby the sentence.

Liz: so, what did you get to the class.

Chersit: I didn't. How did you come out that? Liz: I was in a group home. Cherist: Is that Freaking? Liz: yeah!

Cherist: but you are not freak? Liz: NO!

Cherist: that's too bad. I am. Liz: Yeah, when.

Mother: I just want a hug.

[She could take ...Why wouldn't I expect ... Dying. Is dying a hardest anyone have done?] Chris: Evayone is hard. Liz: except you.

Chris: so where your will pop going to sleep?here, Liz? If he is his daughter. Liz: while I don't think like that. Chris: maybe you don't know.

Liz: he did it to her sister, when he was really younger? She told me that. Chris: why is her sister, not her? Liz: I figure he did it the most.

Chris: so he is crazy to you?

Liz: yeah! And my mother to. That's why I

Cherist: you know, I have got my fathter's didn't want to go here. to go. I'm going to ...school with nothing Chris: you know, my mother is getting bad on...and with my dad.

Student #1: this is a great place, I have never been to.

Liz: Oh, my pops won't get cranky. And we have to by safe by this way.

Chris: Where is the phone, do you have another contest that is clean.

Liz: hold the cord.

Student #2: you'll never go to win.

Chris: Shut up! I have a few numbers to get it.

Student #3: bobby the smart, test it. Students #4: hey, can I take that chicken? Liz: is this already?

Student #3: 5:30.

Student #3: Some drunk lady. Oh, so roge, she ...at the door.

Student #5: i'm going to the window.

Mother: I don't feel really good. Can you help me, Please?

Liz: Yeah, come on, what happened, come this way.

Student #3: Oh, she actually.... Liz:All right, up!

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Liz: I wish my mom wouldn't. Chris: he does stuff to my sister.

Liz: you don't have a sister. Chris: like for her,

Liz: did you tell your mother?

Chris: I told her, when she left him, she ...smelled, so she may call the cops, now she is getting back with them, you know I asked her how she could do that. She said she missed him. She missed him. I was seven when the stuff get in.

Liz: Chris, don't. Moving with me. Chris: Let's stay here?

Liz: Yeah! What your father gonna say.

Liz: we worked so we never see you. I won't get up until he leave, he is like a robot, anyway.

Liz's grandpa: Back at six. Out! Liz: Pop, she had no place to stay. Liz's grandpa: it's not my problem. Liz: leave her alone.

Liz's grandpa: your mother is dying. Your pits father work out and stucking a lot he is. Did I asked for my own age, do they. What are you doing. That suits me. You end up with trash

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anyway, just like your parents.

Liz: so I left. You want get a ...stuff or you know, leave me out here, alone.

[did we even bargan for our lives, it seems to me, you just got to falling into them. And there we have to do the best we can. My mother was dying, my father was gone, but I have to believe that the roads will rise up to me. And it was at 15, when I went into the world. Waht's a home anyway, a roof , a bed, a place when you go and they have to take you? If so, it was 15, when I became homeless.] Liz: Mercy for a change. Passenger: get a job.

Liz: How do you doing tonight? Passenger #2: God bless you, kid.

Liz: mercy for a change.

[but sometimes, I never thought of a guy of homeless. and at other time, I knew where my mom was, that's where my home was. but month by month, she was fading away.] Mother: Liz! Liz: ya!

Mother: where did you go?

Liz: I've..I've been stay with friends.

Mother: I miss you.

Liz: Pops hates me, you know. I couldn't stay here.

Mother: Lisa say she stops going to school. Liz:I'm gonna back. Mother: when?

Liz: when you get better.

Mother: This is me. That is is bar at shake, I can't stop shaking.

Liz: I think that's um, that's because the drinking. You should probably stop. Mother: Oh, Okay.

Liz: you are gonna get better. Mother: OK.

Liz: close your eye, Mother, I love you.

Student #3: get over there.

Liz: your guys wait up, I will show late. I'm going to ... Bye. Mother.

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Mother's friend: We took up a collection. Liz: she was coming here because she was enough her.

Mother friend#2: she is dead, honey. She died yesterday morning.

[sometimes I feel like there is a skin in the world, and those of us who are born under it Can see through it. We just can't get through it. My mother was being buried the section 51, the charity part. My mother was in there,

strangers have put her in there, was she naked or frighted, no, she was gone.] Liz's grandpa: Come on, let's go.

Lisa: No, wait a minute, there should be a service. There should be a prest，what you supposed to have?

Worker: when you go, we gonna to bury him, that's all.

Lisa:it's a she. It's my mother. Student #3: there is no prest?

Worker: no, in these cases. You did know know that?

Lisa's grandpa: she is dead, put her in the ground.

[ prest or not a prest, what's the matter, she was gone. She was already rotting. But I suppose she found internal peace.]

Student #3: she ...

Chris: you know, you just go. Hey wait. Liz, let's just go, Okay. You know, I just can't do this any more. You know, so I'm going. Liz: where?

Chris: group home? Liz: crazy houses.

Chris: this is ...this is crazy. You should come with me. Yeah. See you around.

[People die, and thing decay, everything that seemed so solid became meaningless.all they left is the gesture they make, gestured in air.

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That's all we rember. I remember riding with with my mother through the leaves, the yeild end her arms warms around me, when I was little and she was well. That was long ago. Maybe only happened once, maybe she betrayed me thousand of times, it did matter, myth are alway me subject, through the another world she leaves. We remember what we chose.]

Liz: where're you gonna to put the stone. Worker: there is no stone here, no room.

[And in a week, there would be no trace of her, but what is the matter, this is the really world, and we really need to hug each others' hearts. ]

[She lived in my heart, but I lived nowhere. I was all alone in the world. Your sixteen years old and you get eight of your education, and then I found that I would end up in a worse place if you have ever dreamed, you buried every bridge, you burnt our every welcome, and everyone who have ever believes in you, you let down. ]

Liz: Eva! I don't want to be a idiot. I want to go to school.

.AD: hi!

Liz: I'm Liz Murrary and I have a appointment. AD: at 9:30. Liz: Un.

AD: it's ten thirty.

Liz:I'm sorry the subway get stucked. AD:I'm sorry, too, but it's too late. School starts at 3 weeks ago, and it's just about 4, your kids should get around here on time. Honey.

Liz: I read the brochure, intensive student participation for a just community, I just need one chance.

AD: you can wait and talk to David. He is get

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a meeting right after.

[I knew at that moment, I have to make a choice, I can submit to everything that happened in you life with excuses, or to push myself living. I could push myself and make my life good.]

David: hey, we would be back at Friday. Student: OK, thank you. David: Elizebeth? Liz:Liz.

David: Liz, I'm sorry, I have the last decisions, and now I am already late.

Liz: can I talk to you a minute, or 30 seconds. David: it's the application, it's the whole SA questions, too.

Liz: I have already done, either. Yes, I really want this.

Liz: I haven't go too many grow up, but trust me, ...may be I don't know how to talk to you but my parents both use drugs, at lot of them, I won't go near them, but I guess it's a kind of lifestyle, I'm embarrassed now about never really be able to really to submit to the eight grade up.

David: but your grades is good at ....school. Liz: I used to show up in the last weeks and take a tests and that's how I can get promoted. I' know I'm smart, I know I can succeed but I just need a chance. The chance the climb up the place I have been born in. You know, everyone I know is just angry and tired, there are trying to survive.but I know there is a world that's better, that's better developed and I want to live in it.

David: why now?

Liz: My mother died of AIDS, she died a couple of months ago, and it was really... in the face, I thought I was always though she was going to get better, and take care of me. It's pretty stupid. She'd never taken of me, I take care of her, she was my baby, but now

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she is gone..

David: now it's time to take care of yourself. Can you get here on time, Liz? Liz: I will sleep here if I have to. David: OK. You are in.

Liz: but you told others you wouldn't be here until Friday.

David: you are in.

Liz: you just changed my life. AD: that's bad man.

David: you have to get the paper works the transcripts. That's the easiest stuff, the address, phone number and went up the parent meeting in New Guarding. Your dad in, or go to go.

Liz: Dad.

Liz's father: hey, Liz.

Liz: I need your help. Please!

Liz's father: it's a production. Such a production, why do you want to stay in the Brown and stay in the Cannedy,

Liz: I can go to a normal school.

Liz's father: why? This is a normal school? Liz: um, it's a public, but it's like a private. Liz's father: yeah.

Liz: Dad, Dad. I think I can do this,

Liz's father: yeah, that's good. I don't think I can.

Liz: you can, you can. Just say your logg call and driver. I will never see you. We are living with your girlfriend also.

Liz's father: you give me girl friend? Liz: Eva!

Liz's father: Eva, that's good. Eva is old enough to be my mother.

Liz: Dad, I just need that address, you know, phone number they can call. Please, Please. Come on, they can't have someone that's homeless. I will the city and they will get me there again.

Liz's father: OK,OK. Liz: yeah.

David: Mr. Murrary.

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Liz's father: I'm Peter. Peter Finit. I actually never marry Liz's mother. David: sit down, please.

Liz's father: I'm grateful to take my daugther to this great place.

David: No, we still don't know, we have big ambitions.

Liz's father: yeah, so is with Liz, I guess. She is feminist while she is expecting that already. Her mother was actually beautiful look like a beautiful movie star, but her mother also a kind of feminist, too or something. You know, when just met her, she was a kind of spirit, she was completely insane.

AD: we just need you to sign right here. And give us contact information like air address number, and phone number.

Liz's father: University Avenue, 34-58. AD: is that a apartment.

Liz's father: 3B, 3B that's right. Yeah, that's right. We move upstairs. AD: Phone number?

Liz's father:318-555-5567, so my mind and my memory totally shut. So that's it, what the stuff get to do. Thanks for coming. Liz: can I start now.

David: it sounds a kind of fashion that not come to school now.

Liz: I want to work them up.

Liz's father: how can I get them token to? Liz: you know, I got a job,

Liz's father: yeah, I remember you as a kid you ...down food in the road or food in the fridge. How old were you? Liz:eight!

Liz's father: I'm not a people person. You understand that.I'm not a people person, Liz. It has nothing to do with you. It's not personal, Liz: you came today, though.

Liz's father: yeah. Liz: I love you dad.

Liz's father: don't do that, don't move me, so

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it's a waste of energy.

Liz:you know, when I was little, you were the most interesting thing in the world. You never won't talk about drugs or sex or... You know you just try to survive the day, but you always had a ideas. Because of you I know that there is another way of being. Liz's father: yeah. Liz: are you OK.

Liz's father: yeah, yeah, I'm fine, did you take care of the shelter, actually I'm going to get my apartment. And you can come to visit me or stay with me any time. Liz: you own a apartment.

Liz's father: yeah, they are going to do that. You know they keep the people like me in the shelter,

You know the people, the patients, people with AIDS, or something. Oh, a lot the changes, I can take the medicine now, and I'm clean, some may live forever. I will be fine. I am going to live forever. Stay in school. I blur this, but you can to this.

David: anybody, Frank and Russian War? You! Don't have the busy mark? You did get busy mark.

Student 1: I did get busy mark either. Student 2: I thought busy mark of roll.

Student 3: stop talking about food, you are making me hungry.

Student 4: David, can we have a textbook next year? Because we keep losing this things. David: um. Textbook. Why don't we use textbook? Anyone?

Student 5: they are too heavy. David: they are but no cigar.

Student 2: they are too expensive and the school is too poor.

David: I'm keep my cigar today. You new, girl.

Student: her name is Liz.

Student 4: Oh, Jess, he had been here for a week, try to remember her.

David: Hey, Liz, suing me. Textbook,

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Text-Book. Yeah, open it up. What you see. Liz: words.

David: what kind of words? Liz: the words of the author.

David: this is important. And what we have here?

Liz: a lot of other people's words.

David: why won't you do have it.

Liz: because one point of view give you a 1-D world.

David: cigars. Cigars. Busy mark, the guy who sold me bobble gym, why on earth we can find ourself to his-story, history.

Student 4: but I mean there isn't a deal day I mean a official history.

David: New girl, tell them what history is. Liz: history is all of us, all of story is their. David: that's it, grasp you paper, I will be in the luarch if you want to talk about it. Student 4:hey, Liz, this is yours.

David: hey, new girl.

Liz: you let me in and you even don't remember my name.

David: I remembered you name, I just want to give others to gain you sight. Liz: you are pretty smart.

David: Ha, so are you.

Liz: you give me a A minus.

David: yeah. That's a very good paper. Liz: How can I make an A.

David: Liz, an A minus is an excellent marks, this is your first class paper, what do you what forever?

Liz: if my words can't, I want them to be right. David:OK.

David: what are you still doing here? Liz: Algebra.

David:Yeah, you have to leave I'm going to locking on. How many classes are you taking? The regular five, and the Saturday Programming, the night school-French, and

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the after school-Science. This..ten. Now you see why I need the four school math. David: For a lot.

Liz: 17. You see, I don't want to be 21 before I finish High school.

David: so you are trying to do what, 4 years' high school in three.

Liz: Two. You need the four school math too. David: Yeah, you'd kill yourself you know. Liz: No, I'm going to live.

[I have a down, the beach train settlement at 3:30 to do its entire run, of back four times, that would be school just a little early, and David would let me in, for the first time my life have some order I can count on.]

Liz: Chris?

Chris: you guy keep ...down. Liz: what are you doing here? Chris: you know.

Liz: what about the home. So how could you not looking for me.

Chris: I have been looking for a long time. You haven't been places, you know.

Liz: I'm here now, and I am going to school. I like it.

Liz: hey, come on, everything is great. We together.

David: Last one out, first one in. Liz: No, that's just describes you，David. How did you get so dedicated.

David: I was such a privilege jerk, and I want to give something back. And this is? Liz: My friend, Chris, my best friend. David: hello, Chris.

Chris: Hi.

Liz: I want her to come here, too.

David: there is no party, this is a tough place, you know. But she is gone for you, she is not gonna for me. Come in.

Liz: so, what are you putting on the board? David: I will decide to send the TOP 10

student to the universities of Boston. Liz: Cool.

David: you have been?

Liz: I have never been out of New York. Chris: we went to quaits once. David:where are you going?

Liz: No way I'm one of the TOP 10 students. David: while you are not one of the TOP, you are the TOP. You have the best scores in this place.

Chris: So what, you are going to Boston? David: All expanse is paid. Chris: how long?

David: five days. Are you OK, Liz.

Liz: I was just thought of me just being trash, you know?

David: you are not trash, this is going to get you think about college. Liz: What's college like? Chris: It's all crap, shut up. Liz: you can come, too. Can she?

David: she does the work? Chris: not forget it, thanks.

David: come on, girls, what do you want to do when you grow up.

Chris: Boy, I've been growing since I was 7, David: I mean, after high school. It's OK. Chris: No, it's not OK. I'll be a garbageman, I will be a prostitute. Who cares how it will going to be.

David: it was thought like a fairwood? Liz: better. ...better.

David: they're just people. Liz: Not people like me.

[Why not people like me? What made them so different? Because where they were born? I was working as hard as I could so I would stand on my food stams or harsiling? What if I worked even more, I was so close to Mr. Skin, and I can touch it. ]

David: you will be that rich, it's not that

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impossible.

Liz: don't they have any other scholarships? AD:it's quite a few.

Liz: right on the mountains of free words ans free market and when Five hundred dollars. Yeah, I don't need 70 of those every year. AD: there was something brand new from the New York Times，I mean did put it in yet. Liz: 12 000 dollars every year, for 4 years. AD: what do you have to do?

Liz: attached assay describe what you think it the most important academic achievement, and how you will overcome the obstacles and challenges. Can I copy this?

[ I want to stand beside in the sidewalk, not me so far beneath them. I want to go to Harvard and become very developed, read the best books, not if myself thinking, I just go crazy., using very bit of my potentials to do that, I have to do, I have no choice.]

AD: Am I late?

Liz: No, I just too early. AD: thank you.

Liz:Can I have a stamp for this.

AD: that's the New York Time scholarship. You haven't mail it yet? What's the deadline? Liz: Tomorrow.

AD: we give that four month, and we are waiting for it.

Liz: for today, for me to turn 19.

AD: it's your birthday, Ah, happy birthday. But I don't think that meet the requirement. Liz: you know, Thank you.

[But now, I can tell them the truth, that I'm homeless, no one can come and take me away.]

Liz: Lisa? Lisa: Liz!

Liz: Yeah.

Lisa: what are you doing here?

Liz: I have this interview, I am a finialist for a big New York Times Scholarship. But I don't have anything to wear. Lisa: You want my clothes?

Liz: Nothing fancy, but I can just put over this. Thank you.

Lisa: Mom sold my copped once, can go to school,\

Liz: I remember.

Lisa: they cried. And I love going to school so much, you never went to school, how would they give you scholarship?

Liz:because I am homeless and I'm really doing well with my homework.

Lisa: you are not homeless, you can stay here. Liz: No, I couldn't. You know that.

Lisa:Pop hates you. I'm going blind, like mum. I'm scared.

Chris:Liz. They kick me out of the group home and all my stuff.

Liz: they can't kick you out of the school, you are not eighteen yet.

Chris: but they will put me in Brooklin? I don't want to to Brooklin, you have to help me?

Liz: I'm going to have an interview.

Chris: can you just leave me? Can you just leave me here?

Liz: I have to, I have to.

Chris: Just let me get through this one thing, and you can come back and go to school. Chris: I don't want to go to school, and I don't belong there, neither do you. Liz: Yes, I do.

Chris: You think they people like guys going to Harvard?

[the world moves, you just suspect, it cannot have without you, situations are not conducive what you can do yourself, someone also needs, someone also plays, is going to be stronger

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than your sits, think people just get frustrated without get harsh, life can be， so They spent their time drilling on that frustration and we calling it anger, keep their eye shot to the wholeness of the situation, to all the little tiny things that it have come together it what it is. ]

( at the scholarship interview)

Liz: because I was so intowards my mother and dad that I have a chance to see how this little tiny things get together and to make the final product. So, I was never inclined to think why this and why that, I knew why.Not as I was happy about it, if I was always sad about it all the time, but I was very accepting, I was very accepting that I was always knew that I can get out.

Anchor: what else things you want to tell us? Liz: I loved my mother, so much. she was a drug-addicted, she was nearly blind, she got a kind of freak, but I never forget that she did loved me, even if she did, all the time, all the time, all the time. I hope you really know how much you really need this, oh, I can't go to college or anything without it.

(She went to the ceremony which gives Liz the scholarship.)

Anchor: she earn average of 95 in a class of 150, she did complete four years of high school in two, she did it while she was homeless, while her mother died and her father lived in the shelters, in anyway I described it as injustice give complements, so now I will intruduce you to our sixth New York Time scholarship owner, Liz Murrary. Liz: everything is changed, my life will never be the same, and I don't know what else to say except for Thank you. Thank you very much. A journalist: Liz, Liz, how did you do this? Liz: How could I not do it? My parents shows me what the alternative is.

A journalist: Did you ever feel sorry for yourself?

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Liz: Sorry?

A journalist: sleeping in the subways and downstate?

Liz: that had always been my life. I feel I really got lucky because any sense of security was pull out from mande fo me, So I was forced to look forward and I have to and there was not going back. I just wished the pointed all right, if I worked even as hard as possibly I can and see what happens? Now I'm going to college and this is New York Times is going to pay.

A journalist: So you were lucky, but is there anything you would change if you were able? Liz: Yeah, I would give it back, all of it, if I could have my family back.

[I got into Harvard, and I got a job in New York Times, I got my apartment, and I don't have to care about homeless any more. How happy I was about my life was going to be, but I do, everyone I know, and everything I've done, pieces chip off, and forget the little things, I still have to carry alone, so that's why I've told you, that's why you saw my story, and now I can lay that burden down and put it to rest and I can go on. Hi,mom. ]